yeay! its friday.

the last day of the week :) no more work for this week. yeay! but i have tons of projects to get done.
so yeah, i took 1/2 day yesterday & today i have to do extra work. i thought that i feel better (well, i did in the morning) but not anymore. its not a headache but its more. its like something is compressing my head really hard. urghh.

i miss some of my friends back home.

& akak is meeting up with my cousin for lunch @ klcc today. ishh. benci! why today? why not when i'm at home? then, she's going to medan at night. bencinye! so, because i couldn't follow her, i listed out some things that i wanted her to buy. haha.

hey.. u wanted to know why i don't say it back to you, right? its because you're not mine. get it??

i think i need to do another eye test

so. I've finished surfing the net. now, chatting with en zuraimi from ftmk & doing my work. I'm taking 1/2 day today cos i don't feel very well. feels like i have bricks on my head thats about to fall off any time now.

akak called yesterday just to brag that she bought a new car. Mercedes E200 k to be exact & its black. urghh. jeles! but i have my cuddly aleq :) balik ni kena test drive nih. chewahh. bukan test drive je. tp g bawak jalan2 merata dunia gak karang. haha. & she's leaving for medan tomorrow. jelesnye.. i want to go to medan too.. mau shopping.

S, can i tumpang u guys pegi KL next weekend?? i malas nk drive balik on the 13th tu nanti. so, i balik next week instead. boleh?

Jetty yesterday was A.W.E.S.O.M.E :) & the stars was fantabulous. haha.

& DAMN!! MAN U KALAH?? APA NI DOWW...

i miss my friends back home ;(

its wednesday & i LOOOVEEE Wednesdays :)
let me tell you what i do all day.
7am: bangun & basuh baju. but only on mondays, wednesdays & fridays. any other day i'll only wake up at 730am.
805am: drive to work.
830am - 1pm: from the moment i step in to the office, i'll surf the net. nothing else.
1pm-2pm: lunch break...
2pm-5-30pm: the only time i'll get my work done ;P
545pm: come home & watch tv till 1030 the latest.
after that... TIDUR LAAA :D

yesterday, i had some trouble with STOOOOOPID COCKROACH in my room! bodoh punye lipas! thank god that nad wakes up when i called her. she helped me destroy the cockroach. eee. geli laa.. besar pulak tu. saye phobia dengan lipas ok. sangat geli! xsuke!!! any other bug is fine with me but not cockroach.

i made roti bakar + telur goreng = sandwich telur untuk breakfast. yummy... then had chocolate cake & kentang sambal for lunch. & now, i'm all FAT! FAT FAT FAT! urghhh. i dont like being FAT but i love to eat. & i'm terrible at working out. hahaha. so, if makan banyak & tak exercise akan jadi gemok gedempol, tendang masuk gol. haha.

i bought WL today... just nak try cmne. but i think ML is way better than WL cos WL doesn't taste anything pun... haha. so next time beli W je or ML :)

thanks for the recipe I. i'll cook for you one day nnt k...
thanks for your recipe nisa!! :) akan saye cube nnt. hehe

the 3rd. yeah.. i know

i'm changing bobot's name cos i just found out that farah named her car bobo. its kinda similar. so.. i'm changing bobot to aleq. i can't wait to drive aleq home rite now cos i'm seriously bored like hell! i wanna go home!!!

lets go home.. urghhh.. 1 & 1/2 hour lagi. bosan gile tahap kuda ok!

craving for apam balik + nasi tomato + nasi lemak kdi buah + laksa kedah + mc d's french fries & fillet o' fish + egg tart....

lapar!

aussie aussie aussie!

ok. saye jeles tgk kawan2 saye pegi holiday. especially yg pegi australia.. so, i decided that i want to go to australia too, the land down under. i know i've been there with linda before. that time pegi brisbane & sydney & goldcoast je.. now, i wanna go to melbourne. so, these are the flight fares.. & that's the date that i want to go. haha. boleh plak tgh2 sem nak pegi kan? hehe. biase la... but there's another flight time awal april & its cheaper but its during my final exams.. so how? hmm. but papepun, kene kumpul duit dulu. xpun, mintak akak. hahaha tapi akak ckp next year nak ajak backpacking around UK. nak backpacking around indonesia/thailand again pun boleh ye akak :) hrmm.. tgk dulu mana yang jadi ok. tapi saye nak sangat pegi aussie lagi.. bout place to stay, fizzy ada sana. boleh tumpang ;)

cepatlaa jumaat

work? its not fun at all. I'm bored & i hate work. & bout the new design, i don't have any idea for it! i don't like using someone else's work! urghhh. i wanna go home & sleep & do nothing for today. i'm counting days right now. can't wait for it to be over. can't wait to start the new semester.

day 6 of ganti puasa: umm... ok je..

BENCI BENCI BENCI

ok. saye baru je lepas mengira cgpa saye untuk sem ni cos haritu dapat tgk the unofficial result. NO DEAN'S LIST LAGIII :( fuck la... & pointer kalini jatuh teruk gile ok! yg dapat A, subject koko yg 1 credit hour je. yg lain mana ada A pun. ade 2 A-. 1 for 3 credit hour & 1 for 2 credit hour. lagi la... then ade 2 B's.xda B+ langsung. & both B's untuk subject yang 3 credit hour. ade lagi 1 subject yang belum klua result, but even if that subject dapat A- pun, it wouldn't help. GERAMNYE!!!

& nad's result is higher than mine. bengang gile ok! sedih sangat :( kenapa susah sangat nak dapat dean's list ni??? urghh. AIMY! YOU'RE SCREWED! result jatuh lagi mmg kau ni bangang ok! i hate my self! i've promised my self that i'll get dean's list this semester but it ain't gonna happen. AT ALL. not for the coming semesters jugak. BENCI!! :(

last semester i was 0.04 points away from getting the dean's list. but this semester, i'm nothing near it pun. urghhh. benci!

saya benci diri saya. boleh??

yes, i love love love love you!

i had a slow Saturday & an "Electrified" Sunday. to top it of, i spent both days with my S. well, not actually mine. hmmpphhh... whatever. i had a great time whenever i'm with him. i hope he does too :)

the housemates were all gone since Friday evening. all three of 'em. one was already gone a week a go. had a fight with S that night over some stupid thing. i think it was MY MOOD SWING. I'm sorry.

what did i do on Saturday?? o yea. woke up around 11am. did the laundry. clean up the house. went to mydin at 3pm because i was damn bored at home. shopped around. cooked my self some 'tempe' & cooked him spaghetti cabonara as an apology dinner. i hope that he liked what i did. thank you for coming & being so understanding. hung around the house till 1130 & fell asleep as soon as my head touched the pillow & my body touched the "not so comfortable" mattress.

what about Sunday? the power was out from 830am till i dunno how long it was out. decided to sleep till 930 (well, actually until i couldn't stand the heat anymore) my lappy was out of battery due to 27 dresses that morning. was freaking bored so decided to go out. went to the RM1 car wash & VOILA! bobot was super clean. but now, not anymore.. put some petrol in him & some air for his cute & adorable tires. haha. then... the crave for cupcakes began. called S but he was still asleep. HELLO! it was already 3pm ok. but its ok... he didn't sleep on Saturday.. pity him. he wanted to tag along for MY QUEST OF FINDING THE CUPCAKES THAT I CRAVE. picked him up & head to town. first, we tried the ITALY BAKERY but they didn't have it. actually, none of the bakery's had it. so, i gave up & got my self a half-dozen of big apples. yummy :) but couldn't eat 'em all. 2 for him & 4 for me.. but i only got to chowed down 2.. kesian yg lagi 2. huhu. join-ed apip, sufi & billy for their "I'm a tourist. Lets take pictures" session. left dp at 6+pm & went for dinner. i ate kuey teow tomyam cos i didn't get the chance to eat it on Friday due to some circumstances. haha.

farah & nad came home around 930pm. nad bawak balik chocolate cake kegemaran saya & yang dibuat khas untuk saya oleh ibunya.. well, not actually khas untuk saya tapi saya yang mintak. jadi, khas jugak laa... hehe. with rainbow sprinkles on top of it, the cake looks so adorable :) yummy. thanks nad!! i only ate 1/2 slice last night cos i was already full. but i'll definitely try to eat AT LEAST A SLICE OF IT today ok nad?? thank you kerana telah hilangkan craving cupcake saya. tapi macam mana nak habiskan cake yang besar gile tu? da laa xde fridge ni.. camne ye? xkan xhbs, then nak buang je.. sangat membazir. now, lagi laa rase yang ktorg sangat memerlukan fridge! hrmm... lets go fridge hunting :) oh yeah.. they will also be gone this weekend. adoii.. alone again laaa this weekend :( nak balik jugak but akak won't be around. so, xnk balik.

day 5 of ganti puasa: bangun pagi agak lapar. but now ok skit. tapi rase cam nak makan cake chocolate nad tu skarang je.. kite buka dengan choc cake ok? :D

I've gained 3kgs over the weekend. kene diet 1 mggu ni.. actually, weekends are my "EAT ALL I WANT" day.. & weekdays are the days that i eat only apples & biscuits. haha. its so not a healthy diet but i don't care!

saye mahu yang ini

thanks for the link gummy bear. all of 'em are selling in bulks. i don't have money to buy it in bulks right now :( TAPI SAYE MAHU SANGAT2!!! SAYE MAHU SEKARANG! if back in pj, there are many shops that sells yummy cupcakes that allows you to purchase a cupcake or 2 or more if you're rich enough.

http://pertmuffins.blogspot.com/

i want chocolate moist cupcake with blueberry filling + chocolate moist cupcake with chocolate chip filling please... & i want the designs like this:

anyone yang baik hati...
hadiahkan saye cupcakes please :(

find these for me & i'll love you to bits & pieces

i want these yummy-licious cupcakes!! i HATE being in Malacca right now. i want to go home. everything is back home. there's nothing here. BENCINYE!!! i hate everyone right now. including S! i don't want to talk to anyone right now especially YOU, S!! i want to be alone. i want to eat cupcakes. i want to eat m&m's. i want to eat marshmallow dipped in Hershey's chocolate. urghhh. i don't get what i want when i'm in Malacca.

i change my mind as fast as a Ferrari can go. that's what make people hates me. i know & i don't care. its who i am & i don't want to be anything other than that. i like the way i am. i will usually ask for something that is hard to find. so take note people. no matter what, i still want what i want. yes, i change my mind but i will still remember what i really want. i don't need someone that doesn't care bout what i want.

i text-ed I last night telling him bout something that really makes me thought bout him. we both laughed but somehow, my heart cried & i fell asleep. haha. i know its funny but that was what happened. i miss you. i do... i miss knowing bout what you're doing. i miss talking to you bout things that i know that will never happen. i miss you. i don't say this to anyone. but i just feel like i wanna say it all here. i still keep his letters. i still keep the pillow that he made for me on my 19th birthday & the necklace that he bought for me that costs RM150. i still use the purse that he bought for me just a few weeks before we broke up. i still keep his picture in my purse. i still have all the videos with him in it that i took in my phone. i still remember the 1st time we broke up, what he had done just to get me back at that night. i still remember the way he walk & talk. but... i can't remember his smell. i cant remember how it feels when he held my hands. i can't remember the warmth of his hug. i can't remember how i felt when i was around him. i can't remember how it feels to wake up early in the morning & check my phone just to make sure that he's still asleep so that i get to wish him good morning first. i forgot how it feels to have butterflies in my stomach whenever he calls me baby.

ok. enough.. i should stop. i shouldn't think bout him! he's not mine anymore.

day 4 of ganti puasa: urghh. craving for cupcakes like hell right now.

rojak singapore yesterday was SUPERB! i wish to have it again tonight. or maybe tom yam for tonight.

& & i've made the decision whether or not i should go home. i decided not to go home. sad isn't it? but i don't think that going home would make any different right now. i used to miss home every 2 weeks. i used to miss my room. i used to miss daddy's home cook (even though sometimes tak berapa sedap). i used to miss seeing my friends back home. but now, it seems like all those are not important anymore. there are other things that are so much more important to me here. i hope that daddy would understand. i'm sorry that i rarely come home. i do miss you & akak. but i don't like going home & fighting with you. each time i come home, there's just things that we'll fight about. yeah.. "saye keras kepala. just like you". akak is more like mama & i'm more like you.

itsy bitsy spider. please help me.

nak balik ke xnk balik?

pros & cons:
if balik: RM25 untuk transport (pegi & balik). makan free. entertainment ade TV + INTERNET + akak yg byk songeh + daddy yg byk gile cite die + bleh mintak cupcakes & wendys & chocolate cake from akak. boleh try gune washing machine baru. boleh makan ayam goreng dengan banyak!
if xbalik: confirm klua & gune kreta. so, minyak mesti RM20 - 30 jugak. bosan dok umah sorang2. makan kene beli. entertainment ada S sahaja. boleh tengok movie ngan S. boleh kemas rumah (tp 5 min da siap kemas da). boleh manje2 ngan S. boleh ape lagi ni??

adoii.. nak balik ke xnk ni??? kalau balik, nnt rindu. kalau xbalik, bukannye jumpe 24 jam. same jugakk.. tp bulan depan mggu ke-2 da nak balik jugakk.. ade lagi 3 mggu.. aiyomaa... ish. camne ni??? help me!

hoyeahhh

its thursday. yeay! esok last :D then sabtu bleh g dating ;) hehe

after work smalam pegi singgah petronas ayer keroh & buat mesra card. haha. jakun skejap. i applied for the card because its pretty :) even though i don't use petronas for my lovely but kotor bobot, i still want the card. hahaha.

pukul 2130 smalam baru klua pegi makan roti salad ayam @ dawood. hrmm. i was actually craving for kebab arab yg besar & byk gile sayur & daging but i only got roti salad :( i still want kebab arab!! i dont care! but, thank you S :)

tadi abg zuraimi from ftmk called. terkejut kot.. igt ade bende important ke ape. last last mintak no phone blue. mana laaa saya ada bang oii..

day 3 of ganti puase: x bangun sahur cos smalam da makan byk. now, agak lapar la...

1 thing i dont like spending time with S is that he's too obsessed with cars. if lepak ngn kawan2 selain JS die, all they talk about are cars. bosan kot. i prefer hanging out with the JSes. sorry S. i know i should be supportive. but you're too obsessed about it. i don't care if you like cars or footballs or etc, but don't ask me to tag along when you're planning to do so. i'll definitely fall asleep. YEAH, I KNOW. I'M NOT COOL. SORRY.

makan jom

the 3rd entry for the day. because i'm freaking bored ok.

went to JJ for lunch break. jalan2. i was damn bored with the office atmosphere. dah xde keje. dari pagi dok on9 je.. adoi.. hrmm. but now tgh design skit2. so cam ade keje laa... tp bosan buat keje. xsabarnye nk balik... i want to sleep. i don't have the mood to talk to anyone today. i want to eat cabonara. i want to eat garden salad. i want to eat udang goreng tepung. i want to eat apam balik. i want rojak singapore really bad right now! i want i want i want!! kenape bile kite puase, smue bende kite nak. aiyohhh. i want food!!!

S = stuff

i want this shoe. mana ya nk cari? hrmm...

click click
but only if you have a flash player.
i find it interesting & cool & sedap oooo.
maybe you don't think the same way as i do. but i dont care.
tengok tengok!!
p/s: inilah kerja saye bile saye kene cari design2 web interface :)

anyone rich & kind enough to get me these??
show me your love :)

1. iPod nano


2. Blackberry Storm / Nokia E71 / E63



i need 'ABANG GULA' instead of 'BAPAK GULA'
ok?

S = S

woke up sangat early today. well, not sangat laa... buat roti bakar. yum yum! then basuh baju... but it was raining. tp basuh je la pun. then it stopped raining at 7am. so, then pegi laa sidai baju. huhu. mandi2 & siap for work. hrm... siap macam awal gile. then xtau nk buat ape da kat rumah, so went straight to work. as usual, i was the 1st person there. eh i mean here. sampai2 je trus on9. haha. & still on9 sampai skarang. my work is done. boss xde. so, ape lagi.. melepak je ahh. haha. baru habis download 'my bestfriend's girl' smalam. but xnk tgk lagi cos cam nnt weekend xde cite nk tgk lgi.. haha. watched tv for almost 4 hours yesterday. smpi rumah after work at 6pm. then lepak depan tv ngan nad smpi pkl 10. smue cerita pun ktorg tgk.
1. jom heboh @ tv3 - 6pm
2. matahari (yg dinanti-nantikan...hahaha) @ tv3 - 630pm
3. afv @ ntv7 - 730pm
4. berita @ tv3 - 8pm
5. si capik @ tv2 + zati & mawas @tv9 - 9pm
6. ugly betty @ 8tv - 930pm
haha. see... smue bende pun ktorg tgk. cerita yg sangat kuno & kodi pun ktorg tgk. serious da bosan gile that time. ahahaha. farah was asleep during those 'TV MARATHON' time. die join time tgk ugly betty onwards... but i was already out, meeting with S at 10pm. i was happy that i got to see him. after a very long time... padahal baru sehari je xjumpe. ahahahaha. miss you S :D
lepak@ jiki. ciken xhbs2 nk suruh org crkan gf. daniel xtau ah apsal. gile blur smalam ok. haris, trime kasih untuk stiko finger :) kerol & buya was there too tp skejap je.. huhu. balik around 1230++ then tdo... sedapnye tdo kan? haha

day 2 of ganti puase : umm.. dah xlapar sangat. but still a bit lapar :)

fasting

work work work.
its only Tuesday & i feel like i just don't want to go to work anymore.
re-making the web interface right now but I'm out of ideas.

went to giant alone yesterday because i don't want to go home early. bought daily's super loaf bread which tasted much more better when toasted compare to gardenia, a pack of tiger biscuits & chipsmore. wanted to buy the big plastic container but it was very expensive. i thought that i've wasted a lot of time at giant but i was already home by 7pm. adoi... it was useless.. so, pasar malam would be great today :D but i can't remember where.. hrmmm @ MC i guess.

S. stop telling me & saying that you want cabonara. I've already asked you whether you want to eat it or not & you said that you don't want. so, please stop... you're making me crave for it really bad OK.

i've spent a lot on food this past week. so now, I'm cutting down on it. decided to go on a diet. chewahh. well, i wouldn't call it diet but rather fasting.. decided to ganti all of the days that i've missed during fasting month last year :)

day 1 of ganti puase : LAPAR!!!! serious lapar. terbayang2 m&m's dah ni...

monday is I HATE WORK DAY!!

i hate mondays...
seriously macam bangang!
ok. web design kene reject! urghh. buat balik.. da laa die nye style tu mcm gile KUNO. org tua nye taste.. eee. benci!

LEAVING FOR UKM DAHHH
DA DAAAAAA :D

he makes me feel so alive

last day of the week :) eh takk.. last day of working for this week :D esok da hari sabtu. YEAY! boleh bangun lambat. xyah fikir pasal keje. weeee. sukenye :)

yesterday lepas balik keje decided to meet up with "the ex". since its his last day in melacca, i asked him out. he never thought bout asking me out pun.. pegi mydin then pegi pasar malam bkt baru. then, terasa cam nk makan sotong goreng tepung. hu... so, beli bahan2 & masak. YE! saye memasak ok? huhu. boleh tahan sedap laaa. tp da kenyang sangat smalam smpi sotong tu xrase ape da. huhu. smalam malam makan sotong + kebab + telur + air watermelon! i feel bloated right after that & still feeling it right now. after makan2, sent him home.

then... pegi jumpe S kesayanganku :) hehe. he was upset & jelous. huhu. die bawak g jetty.. best best. thank you... sorry i was damn sleepy. sorry we got to hang out just for a couple hours. but it means a lot. tau tau.

ok.. nk berkerja da ni. da daaaaa...

TENSI TENSI

i decided to eat a lot today.
m&m's + goreng pisang + kuih ketayap + rojak(masih dalam proses untuk di makan lagi ye)
i weigh my self this morning & i've gained 2 kg! argghhh. tension!
work is making me stress. when i'm stressed, i'll eat A LOT!
sia2 je diet seminggu. geram!

selamat siang

new day
smalam i had to stay back till 7pm. ishh benci! boleh plak die suruh stay back. tu laa.. kul 5pm bru nak bg keje kat org. bengong! before2 that xnk bagi. da laa org nga sibuk design web. benci!

S. thank you for the gatorade & the 2 m&m's that you don't know which one that i like. i like peanut ok? but only in chocolates :) thank you thank you. sengaje nk bagi org gemok ah tu an an. huhu.

everyday i go to bed early but i'm still sleepy. haihh..
everyday i go to work wearing slippers instead of heels or etc..
everyday i need to go for a lunch break even though i don't eat..
everyday i'll text him..
everyday i feel like i need to see him. well, i actually do see him everyday :) SUKE :D
everyday i feel like i wanna buy clothes. haha. every second pun mmg mcm tu. haha

SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSShit

STRESS STRESS STRESS!!
STRESS SBB GEMOK!
STRESS SBB KERJA YANG BERTIMBUN!
STRESS SBB BAJU DA XMUAT!!!!!!!!

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

jellyfish

smalam after work pergi coconut shake dengan org kat atas ni. zikri & harith ade skali kat sane. after coconut shake, i wanted to watch the sunset so pergi pantai puteri. then, terjumpe seekor obor-obor. xtau laaa da mati ke tak. hu.. kesian die. obor-obor ni keras! isn't it supposed to be like jelly? oh & saye tak suke makan goreng pisang orang melaka! TAK SEDAP!! i want goreng pisang that i always eat back in PJ.

after that, balik rumah.. mandi then pegi beli gas memasak all the way @ taman cempaka.. adoi.. pastu balik je trus basuh baju & tdo :) heee. tp now, still mengantuk teramat sangat. mate da xbleh bukak da ni!

he's back from perak!! i'm glad that he's safe. he said that he had lots of fun. its good to hear that he's doing great :) which means that he's moving on...

i want!!

i want all these but too bad, i can't!!
geramnye! i want the dresses. i want the bag!
saye mahu smue ini tapi tengah muflis skarang.
smue bende xleh bli. tah bile baru bleh bli xtau ah kan.

jom online

1 & 1/2 hours left for work. hrmm. received a new task & must get it done before next week. its a web interface design for something similar to plkn camp thinggy. any ideas?? i dunno which i wanna use. dreamweavr or flash. flash punye coding agak belit2 lah kan. hrmm. need help from gummy bear lah kot.

gamba bile saye sedang kebosanan untuk harini.

ini bosan + mengantuk + NAK BALIKKKKKK!!!

i want udang goreng tepung lah GEDIK!

ok. so. its tuesday. the 2nd day of the 3rd week of my industrial training. harini kerja saya hanyalah mencari folder dlm berjuta-juta lemon cd. adoiii & today, ktorg X BOLEH PEGI LUNCH BREAK! KEJAM GILE OK! dieorg smue dpt makan sedap2. makan ketupat ngan rendang. ade kuah kacang jugak. ee. then ktorg dieorg suruh makan lepas balik keje nnt. eeee. benci! 1 office ni bau kuah kacang tu. da laa tgh lapar ni. errkkk.. missing lunch is not good for me. ok. even though i don't eat but its the only time where i get to leave the office to get some fresh air. urgghh. i want kuih ketayap :(

smalam, pegi makan garden salad @ qasreena ngan S. yumyum. thank you S :D thanks for the gas jugak :) walaupun xde gas, tp thank you :)

u know that i love udang goreng tepung like hell. why did u brought it up? benci :(
& u know that i rarely eat dinner. jahat!!!

i want marshmallows dipped in chocolate!
i want peanut m&m's!
i want hazelnut cadbury chocolate bar!
i want lemon snapple!
i want gatorade!!!
i want it all really bad right now!

SSS!

my weekend was boring. didn't do anything interesting at all.

Saturday: spent time with S at noon. picked up "the ex" at mc in the evening, went to pasar malam, sent him home, went to puteri at night & hung out with S + his friends till 5a.m

Sunday: went for grocery shopping at mydin. spent almost rm100 on house stuff. urghh. duit da habis. fuck laa.. i dont have any money rite now & akak tak bagi mintak duit lagi until end of this month. now baru 11 hrbulan kot... mana nk dpt duit? adoii... kene save some money. tp, kalau da xde duit langsung, nk save mcm mana? aiyohhh. duit rumah sewa lagi. aiyomaaaa.... help me!!! I HATE BEING AN ADULT! I'm not ready to be an adult yet!!!

oh ye. dah tau nk gune 3 hari cuti untuk ape :) hehe. just wait & see.. next month saye nak berjoli sakan! ahahaha.

happy belated mother's day ucu & makca :)
happy belated bday mak.

ok. gamba untuk harini. saya xde kerja lagi.
haha. bosan!

yummy

just finished lunch. went to jj again today cos k.lyn asked me to go to the post office. die ckp xramai org. aiyohhh ramai gile ok. wasted 30mins there. hrmm. nvrmd. bought sushi + egg tart + pizza but baru makan sushi je cos its my favorite :) hrmm..

oh ye. lunch break saya pada hari jumaat hanyalah 1 jam. xmcm org lain. smue dapat 2 jam :( jealous!!!! huhu..

feel like going to seoul garden. wanna go with me? your treat ok? ;P hehehehe

oh yeah.. finished downloading saw 5! xsabarnye nk tgk :) SAW marathon lah nmpknye ;)

bile sudah bosan di tempat kerja. hahaha.
taken with my web cam.

:)

i had to do bunting designs for a wedding. i prefer to do this rather than UKM's stuff. i've finished inserting text in flash for the website.

smalam nak balik, terserempak ngn harith mase nk klua parking. then, we went to klebang for coconut shake. ajak-ed mr S & shemale join skali. hrmm.. then balik, mandi, makan apple, basuh baju & tdo at 10pm. tp today still bangun lambat :) hehe

received a text message from Fer at 0555. adoii.. mesti die xtdo lagi. huhu. thanks for the wake-up message :) even though i didn't wake up, i appreciate it :)

cried again. FUCK laaa... i can't get over it. but i have to..

ohh & yes yes. i had a dream last nite. bout my cousins.. ahhh. i miss them.

i want a gerbera daisy or tulips :) ahhh. so pretty...

take 30 :P

ok. just got back from jj for lunch break. umm. bought McD's McChicken. tp xmakan lagi.. terase nk beli tp xnk makan sebenanye. only ate a few fries. saw a few classmates there. umm.. no comment. they're not my favourites. so, i dont care bout them!

before pegi lunch break, decided to call him to say sorry. he picked up but his voice was harsh. he's working with his cousin dah. baru tau :( see.. i won't be able to know anything about him anymore. i hate that!!! i cried while talking to him. i'm sorry for everything. i really am. i do love you with all my heart but the love ain't strong enough & it could disappear anytime. & i dont want that to happen. i'm letting you go slowly. i know that you're hurt but i need to do it. he said that he's coming here this saturday & going to perak on sunday. i hope that i have the time to meet him just for a last goodbye. i know that it'll be like gotten stung by a gazillion bees, but i have to do it. if not, i can't move on. he said that i can come back to him anytime i want. he'll wait for me until he found another person. i hope that he can let me go. i hope that he could find that person very soon so that he'll be happy. i want him to be happy. to laugh without pretending. i still want to be friends with him. he means a lot to me. i will always think of him as my bf but i know that he's not anymore. even if miss him, i can not tell him that. i can not tell him that i love him cos i'm not his anymore.

err. i love the jetty!!!

at work. trying to understand the DFD. adoiii.. macam ape je bende ni. ade 4 layer pastu ade 96+ page. urghhhh. pening kepala kot nk fahamkan.

sebenanye, saye mengantuk sangat. mate ni rase mcm xnk bukak je. nk tdo... mlm td tdo xpuas. tp ngantuk2 pun, harini xlambat. ok, maybe lambat a bit. tp ok je... hehe. harini nk g psr mlm lah kot. lame xgi.

akak will be going to medan end of this month. AGAIN!!! ishhh. jeles nih. kalau laa saye xpraktikal, da ikot da k. bleh shopping :) hehe. jeles gile ok. tp lagi jeles bile dpt tau k.izni pegi umrah with my grandmother. JELES NIIII... why smue nk pegi now? wait for me laaa... :(

mr S, jom kite pegi redang. buat smue org jeles jom :) hehehe

i'm missing him now. mr. S said something that made me thought bout him. started remembering everything that he said before. he said that he'll take care of me forever. if i'm sick, he'll be there with me & cook for me & take care of me 'till i recover. i said the same thing to him. but now, its not going to be like that. i have to forget all those. i'm sorry. yeah, i cried. but i know there's no need for tears cos we won't get back together

wind

thank you for the effort my dear. thank you for trying to cheer me up. it worked :)
i love everything that you did.
i love how you say those three words or sometimes five words to me. hehe
i love going out with you every day & every night.
i love it when you make silly faces and makes me laugh.
i love it when you're being so shy around me cos i know that you're not usually like that.
i love it when you carries me on your back.
i love it when you put me to sleep.
i love being around you.
i love knowing about you.
i love you for being so nice yet so "mengada + gedik" with me.

oooppsss. bgn lmbt. haha. pegi snooze byk kali then stop kan. ckp nk tdo lg 5min je lagi. pastu, sedar2, da 0805. tekejut plak... trus mandi.. tp smpt bfast :) xsempat pn tp buat2 sempat. hahaha. klua rumah dengan sekeping roti bakar pukul 0826. hahaha. adoi.. rushing kot.. smpi2 office, buat muke cool je. hahaha. smalam xde laa tdo lmbt, tp entah nape penat sangat. keje kat office pn bukannye byk. maybe sbb best sangat tdo smalam... hehehehe.

i need help. i want help!

i need air! please.... i need some space. i need to clear my mind. i need some strength. i need new vibes. i need new personality. i need brand new clothes and bags and shoes. that means that i have to go shopping. i need time... i need Gatorade. i need M.L. well, i have M.L but i want it now. i want to chop off my hair. i want to splurge my self. i want to go to the beach!! i want to see lights. i want nasi lemak. i want fruit juice. I WANT A BRAND NEW ME!!!!!

thanks for making me happy

the worst thing happened yesterday. i never taught that it'll happen but somehow it did. i dunno how i really feel. am i sad or happy? i cried but i think i don't feel a thing. i feel numb. i couldn't think straight last night. it was my fault for bringing it up. it was my fault for saying it. i'm sorry my dear. i am truly deeply sorry. i know that it's not supposed to happen this way. i'm really sorry. i love you. will always do but now, i can only love you as a friend. those 8 beautiful months that we've spent means a lot to me. i know that we fought all the time but i will never forget it. i'll always remember what you've said to me, what you called me, the way you say my name, what you always do to make me happy when i'm not, how u melted my heart when it was hard as a rock. i will always remember you.

i know that you really hate me right now but please forgive me. i know it has always been my fault. i'm sorry. i'm sorry that we fought. i'm sorry that i lied. i'm sorry that i made you do everything my way when you don't want to. i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.

thank you for giving me all the love that you have in your heart. thank you for making me happy. thank you for letting me to fall in love with you even just for a while. thank you for all the gifts that you gave me. thank you for the time & energy that you've poured to me. thank you for the kisses & hugs that you gave me. thank you for being you. thank you for being a very understanding person. thank you for giving me strength.

definitely gonna miss you when i can't text you when i feel like i want to, i can't call you when i miss hearing your voice, i can't say that i love you anymore when there's just so much love for you in my heart, i can't tell my friends that my bf is doing just fine. the worst part of it is that i won't know a thing about you anymore & i hate that!

i'm gonna miss talking to you every night. i'm gonna miss hearing your voice. i'm gonna miss looking into your eyes. i'm gonna miss fighting for nothing with you. i'm gonna miss holding hands with you (i feel like that's the sweetest way for saying that you'll take care of me). i'm gonna miss going out to dinner with you. i'm gonna miss telling you that i'm fat & you'll say that you'll still love me even when i'm fat like an elephant. i'm gonna miss playing with your arm. i'm gonna miss calling you sayang. i'm gonna miss hearing you calling me baby. i'm gonna miss talking to you about our dreams.. what car you're giving me, how many kids we want. i know it's lame but i'm gonna miss that. i'm gonna miss everything about you & everything that we do.

"I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry."
-but its ok if you wanna let me go. i know how i've been to you

not home yet

its 6pm & i'm still at my office. adoiii. kerje xsiap lagi actually tp xde idea nk buat. UKM's bookmark is done. tp bunting blom lg. urgghhh. i wanna go home :( i wannt go out & have fun. when i say fun, that means i wanna go out with mrS!!!

almost

I HATE MONDAYS!!!
i hate the first day of the week.
i hate waking up in the morning every monday & have to go to work/class.
any other day is fine with me but monday??? urghhhhh

bgn pagi a bit late. malas nk bgn awal2. xde mood. farah yg tlg kejut cos die ketuk pintu mintak broadband pagi2. haha. thanks bg pinjam :) mandi2, breakfast & pegi keje. something happened this morning that makes me scared to drive alone again. nearly got into an accident infront of fasa b. bodoh punye SILVER SAGA LADY! it was my way laa kan.. die boleh pulak suke hati je nk klua simpang & tros klua je. xtgk org. babi betul!! nasib baik sempat break. mmg emergency break ah kan cos i was about 60-70km/hour & the left lane ade kreta... mcm sial!!! pastu buat muke "innocent" die. MACAM BABI AHH DIE TU!!! kau igt kau punye jalan ahh tu?? bodoh!!!!

so, saye stress skarang!
pasal pagi td & pasal nk kne siapkan keje ukm nih. urghhh. tension kot! harini nk kne submit. mcm xleh balik je harini :( xnk tdo office!!! jadi, solution saye.. M.L :) hehe. a bit lega laa kan.

& maybe today xjd g buat alignment tayar kreta cos i don't have time to have some fun. haha. i know pegi buat alignment tayar kreta isn't fun. but meeting with him is fun :)

smalam petang pegi singgah rumah sue, amelia. then sementara tggu nad ngan k.rozi smpi mc, bwk laa dieorg g pasar malam kat t.a.k.h

benci

i love life but

I HATE MY SELF!

there are bad things in life that i've done that i don't regret.
and
there's things i've done that i can't forget about.
&
there are also things that i like doing but ain't a good one.

so, I HATE MY SELF FOR ALL THOSE THINGS!

fat ass

harini bangun lambat. haha. teruk kan saye ni? suke bgn lambat. then lunched at saufee's. die tak reti masak kot... konon nk buat sotong goreng tepung laa kan. hrmm. tp lain yg jadi. haha. teruk btul die tu. finally met his pet, bobot. tp bobot sombong!!!! haha. hrmm. he taught me bout car stuff. then, pegi cuci & vacuum kreta :) kreta sudah berkilat. yeay!! then pegi jonker walk alone to buy kambing kepale goyang. haha. after that singgah tesco untuk timbang berat badan. peteranswers.com btul la! berat saye mmg da naik :( sedihhhh. benci. marahhh. geram! nk diet! xnk makan dah. diet diet diet!!! baju da xmuat. seluar pun same.

j-w

sudah gemokkkkk. saye sudah gemokkkkk. naik brape puluh kg entah. da laa pukul 12 tgh mlm, g mkn rojak singapore 1 hour before that pegi makan ice-cream ngan takoyaki. adoiii. mane xgemok... xsukenye!! nape asyik fikir makan je ni???

saye happy :) happy dengan dia :) tp xhappy dengan diri sendiri!

oh ye. malam pegi jonker walk with saufee skejap. baught my self a yellow sequined purse. but i'm using it as a pencil case. haha. then b4 balik singgah singpore rojak :) nk beli yg solar thinggy utk krete tu. nk bli flower tp farah da ade. nk bli katak, i know that daddy akan marah. igt nk bli yg sheep tu kot. comel sangat :) hehe & & ade slipper yg sangat comel kat situ...

my new room :)

This is my bed :) thats crumpy, the one in pink.
the one in black is tikus and the green which is an elephant is atan.
they are my night buddies. haha

This is the D.I.Y zipped wadrobe. it took me 30 minutes
to get it done. ahaha. saye tahu sangat messy kat atas tu.
tp smue tu adalah important stuff.

This is my table. & again, sangat messy.. i know!

This is my beloved cactus :) just baught it last wednesday.
i call it cuppy... its orange+red.

ok.. this entry is dedicated to my new house :)
feel free to come. its at no26 jalan tu 18, ayer keroh.
nnt kalau ktorg buat open house, saye jemput smue ye...

harini labor day.. weeeeeee :) sukenye. 3 hari cuti! tapi kerja banyak gile. i like working cos i get to go on9 for 8 hours non-stop but i can't stand the work load. urghhh. tension gile.. & & i still dont know how to use AI. mcm kura2 jalan ok saye skarang. terkedek-kedek. & mcm siput pun ada.... adoii.. help me.. sape sangat terer gune AI? smue ckp AI tu senang. bhgian mane yg senangnye ha? & saye xde artistic hand. so, mmg lg xlepas laa gune AI.

smalam after work, pergi coconut shake @ klebang with saufee & harith & zikri & apiz. yumyum sedapppp :) after that makan cheese naan kat d'mamak corner kat hang tauh mall pulak. sudah sangat gemok now... harini nk makan ape pulak ye? hmmm....

woke up sangat awal today cos kene hanta nadow pegi mc... after that saye pegi jogging. surprise tak?? ini xtpu ok. mmg btul saye pegi jogging. hee.. tp terase cm xde effect pun kalau jogg stakat 10 min xklua peluh & makan byk gile... haha

i feel like playing kites at pnti putri sambil minum coconut shake & buat smores. senang cite, i feel like berkelah kat tepi pantai.