take 30 :P

ok. just got back from jj for lunch break. umm. bought McD's McChicken. tp xmakan lagi.. terase nk beli tp xnk makan sebenanye. only ate a few fries. saw a few classmates there. umm.. no comment. they're not my favourites. so, i dont care bout them!

before pegi lunch break, decided to call him to say sorry. he picked up but his voice was harsh. he's working with his cousin dah. baru tau :( see.. i won't be able to know anything about him anymore. i hate that!!! i cried while talking to him. i'm sorry for everything. i really am. i do love you with all my heart but the love ain't strong enough & it could disappear anytime. & i dont want that to happen. i'm letting you go slowly. i know that you're hurt but i need to do it. he said that he's coming here this saturday & going to perak on sunday. i hope that i have the time to meet him just for a last goodbye. i know that it'll be like gotten stung by a gazillion bees, but i have to do it. if not, i can't move on. he said that i can come back to him anytime i want. he'll wait for me until he found another person. i hope that he can let me go. i hope that he could find that person very soon so that he'll be happy. i want him to be happy. to laugh without pretending. i still want to be friends with him. he means a lot to me. i will always think of him as my bf but i know that he's not anymore. even if miss him, i can not tell him that. i can not tell him that i love him cos i'm not his anymore.