yeay 3!

weehoo.. 3 more days to go :) hee.. i cant wait lah! cant wait ok! heee.. cepat laa habis.
hmm. during lunch break, g kluakan duit & pass kat farah untuk byr rmh sewa. yg si farah ni, ponteng keje. ciss. JELES!!

today, saye siapkan report. huhu. banyak lagi ni. so, chill laa.. ade lagi 3 hari. akan saye gunekan masa selama 3 hari ni utk siapkan report saye :) da malas buat keje2 lain. hahahahaha. ye saye pemalas. saye tahu. anda ade masalah ke? hihi.

smalam tgk cite 'the last house on the left'. xtau laa cite yg farah download tu btul ke x cos xde pn rumah blah kiri yg last. huhu. cite tu sangat 18sg,sx ok! menyesal tgk cite tu.. eeeeee.. its still fresh in my mind. euwwwww!

harini, nak makan jemput2 ikan bilis :) yummy.. sedapnye...

oooopss

ok. decided to buka puasa. hahah. why? cos i dunno why.

& & i've decided not to diet anymore. i wont say that i'm fat out loud anymore. i'm just gonna keep it to my self & S :) hehe. S my dear, u'll still hear me saying that i've gained weight & bla bla bla... kat sape lagi saye nak mengadu kalau bukan org yg saye sayang. kan??? i'm gonna eat all i want at any time that i want! food = yummylicious la weyhh. so, xmo diet2! just exercise more. heee..

& & & i want wendy's please!!!

adegan-adegan JS

okay.. i was bored on sunday. so, i edited some of the pics that i got from bobo the night before. jangan amik hati ye ngan bubble talk ni smue.. saje je main2. bosan kot..

*click to enlarge image*

S brought me a cupcake that he took at the bride & groom's table at a wedding that he attended. i was supposed to get 2 cupcakes but 1 fell in his car. sedih :( & for the 1st time, org bagi telur masin kat bunge telur. huhu. yummy... he's still having the fever. kesian die.. tu laa.. DEGIL! org suruh makan ubat, dok rumah & rest tp die ni xreti dok diam! asyik nk jalan sane sini. pastu da demam, complaint kat org. mmg gedik!!!

yeay!! my last week of industrial training :) sukenye.. then, nak balik rumah! ponteng class for 1 week. then baru dtg balik. weehooo!!! & & new intakes da masuk. haha. klaka tgk dieorg beratur tggu bus.. then kene pakai baju putih. hehehehe. korang serious akan bosan tahap maximum! & menyesal sbb masuk utem. hikhik. oh oh & dieorg register kat DT.so.. dt is now officially open to all. nnt ftmk kat dt gak. best best :) bleh g exercise everyday. hee..

puasa : its not the 7th day of my ganti puasa thinggy tp saje nak puasa harini cos nak "try" turunkan berat badan balik. hehe. so.. this week, saye akan puasa je. except hari jumaat cos nak balik rumah. hehe. & & kene pegi jumpe lec untuk hanta report. tp bile ye? hmmm... hopefully die bg hanta 1 week after da hbs li.

i can't promise you that i can make you happy. please understand. i'm sorry if i've hurt your feelings. but its just who i am. i'm sorry.. but happiness wont be in your dictionary anymore.

bye bye mj

the king of pop is dead. hu... no comment lah tapi ye cos i dont fancy his music.

asam pedas ikan pari sedappppp :) hehe. thank you S... harini nk... umm. ayam. haha

ok. i have officially gained a lot of weight! ciken & zikri said that i've gained weight. they said that i look fat! urghhh. when someone other than girls says that i look fat, i'll get furious! I NEED TO GO ON A DIET!! a massive NO FOOD diet! urghh. i need to exercise but i'm super duper lazy. i need to control what i put in my mouth especially snacks! urghh. DIET DIET DIET!!!

shit la... ade x sesape yg nk lemak2 saye?? hrmmmmm

urgghh. F***!! bengang gile weyhh. nad got 3.48. F***!!! its not that im not happy for her but i'm mad at my self. wtf man.. ive been trying very hard to get atleast a 3.4 this semester but i didn't. benci sial! why laa weyhh.. nape saye xdpt 3.4++ sem ni? benci tahap maximum dow..! my results were never lower than hers. aku dah jadi bodoh ke ha?? urghh.. bangang ahh. result aku dulu same cam die jugak, tp apsal die punye lagi tinggi dr aku nye yg dulu. ishh. BANGANG! bencinye! result turun gile babi!! sakit hati sial. ni yg nk mengamuk gile! F*** F*** F***!!!! &.. smue orang punye result menaik.. but only mine yg menurun! urghh.. im grateful for still getting a 3 pntr but im not happy with my result! I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL!! im not happy that my result is lower than nad's. i'm not happy that i didn't even get a 3.4. to top it all of, S is sick. i know xde kene mengena pun but it spoils my mood too. TODAY, I'M NOT HAPPY!! blerrghhh... benci bangang sial babi! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa macam ******!!!!!!!! i need to get dean's list next semester. what ever it takes, i must be in the dean's list! & my result must be higher than nad/farah/everyone in my class. i need to gain back everything that i've worked for. i need to focus in class. i need to do my assignments on time. i need to study a bit harder than i had done last semester & most importantly, i need HIM to be with me!(oh ye.. xde kene mengena but i need him ok!)

"PUT MORE EFFORT & IT WILL SHOW YOU THE SUCCESS!"
more effort aimy! MORE MORE MORE!
what i give is what i get??
so give more, get more lah kann??


ohh. craving for tuna... yummy

bangang!

F***!! results are out & i failed to get dean's list AGAIN!!! the result that i got in my dream a week a go was better than what i got in reality!! every second semester, like EVERY SECOND SEMESTER OK, my result will drop A LOT! is it because i didn't study much or because my lecturers decided to flunk me. bengang kot result jatuh banyak gile. BANYAK OK! macam org bodoh je aku ni. susah sangat ke nak dpt dean list ha?? benci utem ah!! i've lost my mood. i don't want to do anything. i don't want to do any work. urghh.

i wish that he'd surprise me with the things that i love. but too bad, he's not that type of person. he doesn't really care bout the little things but i still love him cos i know, no one's perfect. i can't change him to be how i want him to be. maybe i can change a teeeeeeny weeeeeeny bit, but not all. so i guess that i just have to chill out & roll with it. hehe

oh iya.. sha, saya mahu big apple. 1 dozen! jangan lupa ya bile dapat allowance nnt. hehe.

tuesday the fun day

ok. these are some of the pictures that i took from buya's fp. but i'm really waiting for the original pics. i don't want the ones that are edited cos i hate edited work. so buya... i want the original pictures please please... if nak tgk yg lain, pegi laa kat fp buya ye...

ok... ni lah die S. he... die ni mengada-ngada tahap maksimum. gedik pun ye. bengong pun ye jugak. die suke bawak saye jalan2. tp yg paling best, die suke bawak saye g makan. hehe. sbb die tahu saye suke makan :P die suke buat saye gelak. dah banyak yg ktorg lalui. banyak gaduh jugak la... tp die ni seorang yg sangat memahami. walaupun salah saye, die akan mengalah & dengan die ni lain sikit. saye pun cepat mengalah. xbleh marah lame2 pun.. huhu. dah banyak mase, tenaga & duit yg die da bazirkan untuk saye dr 1st day ktorg kenal. banyak sangat sampai da xterkira da.. 1 bende yg paling saye suke yg ada pada die.. die sangatlah penyayang :) hee.. rase bahagia kot... thank you for everything S ;) thank you for being by my side when i needed u the most. i'm mad at u for not saying those words but i'll be patient ;P hehehe.

UMBAI was good :) ate butter prawn, sotong grg tepung, ikan siakap sweet sour, kupang sweet sour, & sayur kangkung, kailan :) & not to forget, the yummy cuppies. thank you akak :) tapi awak hutang saye crocs ye! smalam org ajak g bli tp die xnk. gedik!

TRANSFORMERS 2 bleh tahan best kot.. haha. banyak character baru tp overall mmg best & klaka gile. huhu. i love the twins yg first2 jadi ice cream truck buruk. haha. "suck my popsicles" was the truck's motto. hahahaha.

btw, Happy 20th Birthday Narcosis.

i can finally say that i'm moving on. finally!! its going away. the guilt, the love, the memories. all of it have moved on. its really fast, i know but i already did. but at certain time, i'll still call him just to know how he's doing. i don't miss him like i used to anymore. i used to miss him & cry till i fell asleep. now, not anymore... i'm glad that i've passed through the hard part.

new day

hello...
lame rasenye xblog. haha. just got back from kuantan yesterday :) sangat best!!! hehe.
nak upload gamba, tp gamba xde cos it's with buya. so, tggu dr buya dulu lahh ye :)
JS won 1st place for Div 4, again :) congrats yaaaaaa....

oh iye.. serious seluar da ketat dah nih. kene diet diet diet!!

& akak nak datang melaka harini. then die ajak g makan kat umbai nnt. weehoo!! so, disebabkan die nak dtg, saye pun pesan laa cupcake from cupcake chic kegemaran saye ;D hehe. yeay!!! dpt mkn cupcake. untuk cupcake, saye xmau diet ok.. haha. saye mintak fatal attraction & chocofee. yummy.. nak mintak 6 tapi die ckp "ni nk makan dpn ktorg or nk makan sorang2?" & saye pun ckp la.. "nak makan sorang2. t korang curi mi punye plak". hahahaha. jadi, saye hanya dapat 2 instead of 6 ;( tp xpe.. saye dapat juga cupcake saya!!! hahahaha
& & saye ade 9 hari lagi... yeay yeay yeay!! then, da habis practical! xsabarnye nak habis! bosan kerja dah ni! tp sebenanye, kerja nga byk gile ni. hahaha. i need ideas laa deyyy. sakit otak ni nak fikir. hishhh

asam pedas ikan pari :D yummy

my mind is already in pahang but everything else is stuck here. right now, all i can think is "baju apa nak bawak eh?", "oh, kene bawak tu, bawak ni", "eee tak sabarnya nak cuti!". thats what i've been thinking since i started my day. i didn't do any of the work that i was asked to do cos i don't have any idea for it. otak ku tepu! macam sangat tepu ok! urgghh. wahai otak, apa kena dgn kau ni ha??

since i won't be home this father's day, i designed a card for daddy. i made a very simple card cos i'm seriously all blocked out with "i want to go to pahang!! yeay yeay!" thinggy. so daddy, sorry cos the card is not pretty at all. but whatever pun, Happy Father's Day!

oh iya.. smalam on fb, baru dapat tau yg NAZIRUL HAZIM A.KHALIM dah balik dari UK. dah 3 mggu da pun. geram gile cos no one told me! i was the only one who doesn't know that he's already here. ishhh. bengang gila ok! so, welcome home ya aim ;) jangan bagi alasan jerebu kat kl untuk xnk turun kl. missing you though. i think it has been 2 or 3 years kot kan? huhu. raya, kita jumpa. hahah. ok?

JETTY ok je smalam. die cam xcool sangat cos xde angin sangat & xde bulan ;( tapi dengan die, smue pun jadi sronok :D & & trima kasih untuk 5 biji durian ya.. ahha. dieorg da makan 3 da smalam. ade lagi 2 biji. untuk i pulakkkk. haha

i loike!

ahh.. lega :) penyelia dah datang. so, settle dah.
got good review from my industrial supervisor.
wee hoo :)

so, skarang saya hanye fikir pahang pahang pahang.
wahh. pahang! ;) hahahaha. jumaat & isnin saye cuti. sukenye... haha

oh lapar. mau rojak laaa rase. hrmmm..

nak shopping!! oh duit, di mana kau???

i want to go to KLue Urbanscapes 2009 lahhhhh!!!

all you sweet cakes. take me to urbanscapes please..
i wished that i did my industrial training in KL. haihhhhhh

sedap

durian durian durian.
yummy :D

my diet isn't working. well, i'm not even dieting rite now. haha. adoii.. i've gained a lot of weight. gemok gemok! gemok gedempol, tendang masuk gol. haha

lame xgi jetty ;(
jom pegi before pahang.. boleh?

happy belated birthday asiah & yeng :)

its all i can say

i had a dream that i got 3.4 for my gpa. 3.4??? WTF!!! turun kot. benci! i dont want 3.4. i want 3.5!! arrgghh. takutnye.. bila result nak klua?? fkekk dah klua da pn. ftmk bila ni???

i keep on making mistakes that i, myself regret. people say, learn from your mistakes. but i still have not learned anything from any of it. i'm sorry.. i know that i've ruined everything. EVERYTHING! i'm really sorry. i know that you hate me like hell right now. i'm sorry & that's all i can say. i can't turn back to the way it was. you know it better rite... i can't be what i was before. i can't make everything like the way it was & pretend that everything is okay when its not. i'm sorry that i've killed our dreams (oh so dramatic)..

a friend gave me some advice. i told her everything yesterday. so, she already know what had happened a month a go. i dunno whether she supports my decision or not but she's being supportive right now.. thank you so much! i know that i'm such a bad person. i know it was my biggest mistake but a part of me is happy. just the other part still feel shitty.

i hope that i'm ready for the new life. i hope that i wont repeat the same mistake all over again.

wedding

ini semua hari sabtu...

1) basuh baju, kemas kreta then buat alignment & balancing aleqku. jakun jap cos xpenah tgk. haha.now, die dah sihat :D oh ya. mandikan aleq skali :) hehe. die dah wangi..

2) pegi kenduri kawin. it was sabri's sister's wedding @bukit piatu. umm. actually datang sbb nak makan cos nak jimat duit. hehe but it was fun. ktorg smue mengada2. nak tu la. nak ni la.. sabri melayankan je laa. sian die. hehe. then dah ada camera, ktorg pun amik laa gamba. ni sedikit sebanyak gamba yang ada. photographernye mostly adalah amelia. rajin die g menyibuk kat org. haha. dieorg nye theme, silver.. cantik kot.. huhu.

3) makan seafood with S.

laili, ahseng, fahmi, kai, shaxbdk laki ngah makan..ha.. tiup nad. tiup.. hehenad, amelia, aimydah ade prop.. so, ktorg pun main kawin2. hahalaili, nadohh.. ini rumah ktorg. haha. finally, ada pun gamba rumah.

plkn sri ledang

The view from NIKON D40 lens

Web Developer TeamMeObjects (unedited)

ook. ni time bosan2. so, snap laa picture yang tak berkenaan.

2 days 1 night @ kem plkn sri ledang. bukan main2 ye disana. tapi untuk kerja. penat kot.. skarang still mengantuk. haihh.. cammana ya ni? but pape pun, it was definitely an overwhelming experience. to be able to see what plkn camp actually looks & feel like. didn't get the chance to do any of the activities there such as flying fox or kayak cos it was a business trip. chewahh. dah business trip dah. haha. hrmm. papelah. dapat naik boat, pusing tasik. my work was only to take pictures. so cam 24 jam ngan camera. trime kasih nad bagi pinjam camera :) ia telah banyak berjasa. hehe. nak crite panjang2 cam malas sbb otak da tepu. ahahaha.

nak buat alignment tayar aleq ku.. kesian die dah senget. hehe. oh. nak mandikan die jugak...

water fountain near hangtuah mall is kinda cool. dieorg try buat cam dekat singapore tu eh? ke kat mana tah. haha.

i want tom yam & m&m's & rojak singapore & apam balik. jom shopping jom :)

& & i miss miss miss him very bad..