bangang!

F***!! results are out & i failed to get dean's list AGAIN!!! the result that i got in my dream a week a go was better than what i got in reality!! every second semester, like EVERY SECOND SEMESTER OK, my result will drop A LOT! is it because i didn't study much or because my lecturers decided to flunk me. bengang kot result jatuh banyak gile. BANYAK OK! macam org bodoh je aku ni. susah sangat ke nak dpt dean list ha?? benci utem ah!! i've lost my mood. i don't want to do anything. i don't want to do any work. urghh.

i wish that he'd surprise me with the things that i love. but too bad, he's not that type of person. he doesn't really care bout the little things but i still love him cos i know, no one's perfect. i can't change him to be how i want him to be. maybe i can change a teeeeeeny weeeeeeny bit, but not all. so i guess that i just have to chill out & roll with it. hehe

oh iya.. sha, saya mahu big apple. 1 dozen! jangan lupa ya bile dapat allowance nnt. hehe.