its all i can say

i had a dream that i got 3.4 for my gpa. 3.4??? WTF!!! turun kot. benci! i dont want 3.4. i want 3.5!! arrgghh. takutnye.. bila result nak klua?? fkekk dah klua da pn. ftmk bila ni???

i keep on making mistakes that i, myself regret. people say, learn from your mistakes. but i still have not learned anything from any of it. i'm sorry.. i know that i've ruined everything. EVERYTHING! i'm really sorry. i know that you hate me like hell right now. i'm sorry & that's all i can say. i can't turn back to the way it was. you know it better rite... i can't be what i was before. i can't make everything like the way it was & pretend that everything is okay when its not. i'm sorry that i've killed our dreams (oh so dramatic)..

a friend gave me some advice. i told her everything yesterday. so, she already know what had happened a month a go. i dunno whether she supports my decision or not but she's being supportive right now.. thank you so much! i know that i'm such a bad person. i know it was my biggest mistake but a part of me is happy. just the other part still feel shitty.

i hope that i'm ready for the new life. i hope that i wont repeat the same mistake all over again.